#MJFAM The Problem With Non Black POC MJ Fans co-opting our Perspectives


Hello everyone. I’d like to call something to your attention regarding an incident that happened yesterday between me and Samar (@theMJAP) on Twitter. Basically, he was very anti Black towards me after accusing me of ripping off his videos about Michael’s pro Black moves.

The post he slandered was published in October 2015, called “An Analysis of Michael Jackson’s Pro-Blackness“. This was posted waaay before I knew that the MJap was doing videos on MJ’s Blackness. Before our interactions turned sour, I sent Samar a link to my post as a show of solidarity, hoping we could converse about Michael’s love for being Black, and the pos flat out accused me of plagiarizing his work; as if his blog is the ultimate pinnacle of MJ research. I hadn’t even followed his blog until this year. Also, I was only aware of his videos when he posted them on Twitter more recently. He said I needed to “cite my sources”, implying that I used his blog/channel as a source, which I did not ( don’t flatter yourself honey). What was anti Black about it all, was number one, him speaking over me and thinking that he owned the only valid interpretation of Michael’s political moves as a Black man.

When you claim to be an ally to an oppressed group, first of all, you do not put yourself at the forefront of knowledge. Samar implied that I can’t have possibly taken a quote I used from Ralph Ellison’s “Invisible Man” and interpreted that on my own, as if I as a Black woman who has read Ellison’s work, could not have possibly figured that out on my own! Oh no! Then he went further to say that it was “uncanny” how we both talked about the Ralph Ellison reference, as if the phrase “am I invisible because you ignore me?” wasn’t commonly known.

I read and analysed The Invisible Man in high school. I still have drafts of the book report, however, here’s a screenshot of my email to prove I rented and read the damn book:

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Now shut the hell up, Samar.

I could go on and on about how problematic his behavior towards me was, however I explained it all much better on twitter. The anger was fresher a day ago.

When you take things that anyone can research and claim it as your own, you’re sending the wrong message to the people you supposedly represent and support. Any student of Michael’s music could look up the historical meaning behind Olodum (which I did, Olodum has a website), or plainly see not just from statistics, but from experience, that Michael represented overcrowding of African Americans and Men of Color in prisons. It doesn’t take “academia” to see that. I cite my sources every time I write a blog post. Every time. The only reason you don’t see a list of sources in the article I wrote is because, number one, you’re lazy as fuck because I insert quotes that are Michael’s own words. He’s my source. Number two, I know you’re old as fuck Samar, but there’s this thing where you can put links to your “sources” inside of a paragraph. It’s called a link.  You’ll find those in the article you so lazily skimmed over.

In that article I provided a link to where I got the list of books MJ read from-which was the rhythmofthetide blog. ⬅️[ oh look! A hyperlink!]

Another issue Samar had with my blog post, is my mentioning the part in Black or White where Michael said “I ain’t scared of no sheets!”

OH NO! What could that phrase possibly mean??? My Black Southern ass is SO confused! Help me figure this one out Samar! Who’s ancestors were hanged by men in sheets, you literal dick? Yeah, I took that from your blog. Mmmhmm. Even when people in sheets still are allowed to exist and hang/shoot my people. Honestly fuck you lol. Just because you mentioned the elephant in the room “first”, doesn’t mean no one else can.

Now, let’s review the definition of plagiarism, shall we?


“the practice of taking someone else’s work or ideas and passing them off as one’s own.”

Sam here thinks that his ideas here are original, just because he talked about them. His idea to talk about them in his own way is original, however the research itself is not his experience nor his idea. I wrote a blog post on Michael’s Blackness, and it so happens that Sam and I both talk about the same subjects. Why? Because, well, I can only speak for myself. The subject matter pertains to me as a Black person. I could identify certain things Michael did as a black person. He is part of the reason why I “woke up”. When I wrote that post, I realized that my “ideas” were commonly known, not just in the MJ fanbase. I was overjoyed that other people could understand and appreciate his contributions. Samar thinks that because our ideas overlapped, that I ripped off all his hard research. Sam, you have a lot more to learn, as I find your brand of allyship to be very insincere. Just because we talked about the same things, does not mean I ever visited your blog. I was barely on the internet, let alone twitter in 2011.

I do not view my analysis of Michael’s Blackness to be my own ideas or work. It’s the work of my ancestors, and the Black MJ fans who came before me. Those are the people I draw inspiration from. Know that if I wanted to make my own academic blog about Michael Jackson, I would. And I most definitely wouldn’t use that man-baby as a reference.


Yes, it’s Still Blackface: How White Actors Center Themselves in Hollywood


Hello fans! Long time no post! If you’ve been paying attention to the news going around the fandom, I guess you all know why I’ve returned to this blog even though I never really left. There just wasn’t any inspiration for me to write in regards to MJ. Although, I have been posting on my art blog about things that have been happening with me in regards to visual arts.

A year ago, it was brought to MJ fans attention that SkyArts would be broadcasting a satirical British program by the name of Urban Myths. One upcoming episode in particular has recently caused a massive outcry of anger from not just hard core MJ fans, but from the general public (especially Black twitter) and even Michael’s family. This episode was supposed to be based on a rumor that Elizabeth Taylor and Michael Jackson took a road trip across the country side after 9/11.

I cannot express how disgusted I am with their decision to cast a white man, Joseph Fiennes, in a role playing the entertainer. Even though the outrage caused SkyArts to cancel the episode, the damage has been done to Fienne’s reputation (although, I couldn’t care less about what happens to his career).

White washing in Hollywood is not a new thing, but what happens when you erase Black people with the skin disease vitiligo from the “Black experience”? Is it not still blackface when you try to portray a real person on film? Does a lack of pigment suddenly change your race? Does a cosmetic change in a person’s physical appearance give a white person permission to play them on TV? You should already know the answer to those questions. Black face is blackface, period.

Michael was a real person, who repeatedly stated that he did not want a white person portraying him on TV. He was proud of his race. And so, I find it extremely irritating when people say “well, he got plastic surgery, he was close to the complexion of a white person anyway, so I don’t see what the big deal is”. Having vitiligo does not correlate to plastic surgery in any way first of all. Secondly, I find it odd that people will equate a thin nose and straight hair to being attributes only exclusive to white people. White people who like to point out how MJ “hated his race” love to center themselves in the discussion. I went in on this even more with this thread. What really are “white features”? Black people can have blue eyes, they can be white passing (mixed), light skinned, or the darkest shade you can imagine. So again, what skin tone or hair type is “white”?

Also, the question I pose for white people who like to point out someone’s hate for being their race; how come this doesn’t happen in your community? Oh wait, it’s because your ancestors created these warped beauty standards that society upholds in order to make people of color insecure about their natural features. Gosh, I forgot about that. So really, why do you think it’s your place to be so anti black/POC?

Black people who adhere to a certain limited expression of what blackness really is, have made it hard for others to be flexible and comfortable in theirs, in my opinion. When you hold your blackness as the only blackness that is valid, you are actually being anti black. Also, when you are making fun of a celebrity like Michael because he happened to get a nose job or two, and a cleft in his chin,  someone who was told very early on in life that his “black features” were not beautiful, you are being anti-black. You are part of the problem. We have enough obstacles to face in this world, so stop being so hypercritical of someone who did more things for this community than you ever have, while you laugh at the shape of his nose. This constant effort by some to strip MJ of his Black identity has to stop. It’s disgusting. He was not the only person in the world with vitiligo, and his type of vitiligo is not unique only to him. You would have to be a complete idiot to believe that you can use simple bleaching creams to turn your skin completely white, and if it were possible I’d be surprised that you don’t already have aggressive skin cancer, or other problems.

Let’s get back to Joseph Fiennes. He has yet to issue an official sincere apology for thinking it would be okay to play an obviously black man in an Urban Myths episode. I personally think he thought he wouldn’t be called out, even though he claimed to “wrestle” with the decision to play MJ, and supposedly wanted to be respectful towards his family and fans. Those are just excuses. You knew what you were doing, and you didn’t consider Michael “black enough” to be portrayed accurately. Your feelings should not be centered in any discussion on this matter, and I am tired of white actors making excuses that casting directors couldn’t find actors of color. It is not your role to play, so hand it to someone else.

So I made a Patreon.


I know what you’re thinking. “The hell is a Patreon?” Well, to put it simply, it is a site kind of like Kickstarter for creative professionals who are sponsored monthly to make a living off of creating art for other people. You have the option of paying a couple dollars or more per month so that the creator (Me) can create the things you love and want to see. I decided it is time for me to move on from my fandom days.


I will always be an MJ fan. As a matter of fact I plan on making YouTube videos about being an MJ fan as well as ones centering around my life as an artist. However it is time for me to step out of my comfort zone and pursue my dreams of becoming a professional artist and businesswoman. I will be devoting less time to this blog because of obligations from school and other things. I also feel like a lot has been said about Michael (academically) that I already stated in this blog. If a new idea strikes me best believe I will publish it.

Please share and spread this article, and also follow/ support me on Patreon! Oh, and follow my new art blog. Hopefully it is the last one I will have to create LOL.

Thanks for your support,


MASTER POST: Michael Jackson’s Sexuality


I have been hesitant to discuss this subject for a while and with good reason. Even though few other fans have touched on this topic I would like to give my own opinions and observations about Michael’s sexuality and religious views. Please note that I am not claiming to have known MJ, nor am I claiming to know what he believed or thought at a particular moment in his life. I can only go based off of what he said while he was alive. I do not claim to be a feminist or womanist (I don’t really care for labels), although I do agree with a majority of their views. I know you just rolled your eyes at me.

Firstly, I believe that Michael was not hyper masculine* and he became more and more non gender conforming, or “androgynous **” as he got older. I do believe he was comfortable with his sexuality (obviously heterosexual and cis-gendered ***) and tolerant and respectful towards his LGBT fans and friends. I think he gained a better understanding of other people’s experiences by surrounding himself with people in the LGBT community, however he was not incapable of saying things that may be interpreted as ignorant, whether he meant it that way or not. He was very intelligent and aware of a lot of issues that even I do not know about. I think his work requires constant examination and analysis. The only appropriate critique of Michael’s work comes from fans who can be objective while understanding him as a person and the actual message behind his music.

Before I get into this I want to address a situation that happened a day ago on Twitter. It’s part of the reason why I decided to go ahead and dust off the draft for the post I’ve  been afraid to publish  since last year. Some fans (as usual) have misconstrued what I said and blown it entirely out of proportion. This topic has always been a source of conflict within this fandom. For some reason fans like to call Michael “perfectly imperfect” yet when you critique some questionable things he’s said they attack you. “MJ has enough bad publicity!” they’d complain. As if a couple of fans honestly discussing the fact that he was imperfect is an attack on his incredible integrity and character. Please. Pointing out some (possibly) sexist things he did in the past does not mean I’m pulling a 180 on MJ as a fan. As someone who will always admire and respect him, I do not believe he is exempt from critique. I will never bash him.


MJ God poem

Excerpt from a poem in Dancing the Dream. Notice how he keeps switching pronouns for God.

It seems as if during the time MJ was disfellowshipped from the Jehovah’s Witness religion that he began to question his own views (this struggle was revealed in his books Moonwalker and Dancing the Dream.). His lack of a childhood may have had a hand in this, among other things. As someone who grew up in a Witness household I can identify with struggling with my personal views and not being able to celebrate holidays or birthdays. I never cared for holidays but would occasionally wonder what it was like to celebrate. Some aspects of Christianity are…interesting. You are not supposed to celebrate “polytheistic” holidays anyway but let’s not get off topic.

Michael grew up in a strict, abusive authoritarian religious household. It seems his only relief from this was performing and bonding with his mother and siblings. I am not saying the Witness religion is strict and authoritarian because it’s not.

The source of yesterday’s conflict started when a fan said that Michael could be sexist sometimes and another fan (along with myself) agreed, citing his conversation with Rabbi Shmuley Boteach. I do not condone buying anything from that crooked man because as far as I am concerned he is just as bad as Martin Bashir. I do not give credibility to any of his books about Michael however some fans (and myself) examined a statement MJ made on tape about modesty and also cross dressing. I simply stated that the way he said “I didn’t want to go to a gay bar (with Madonna) where they cross dressed” sounded like he was being close minded.

That’s when the fandom erupted and I’m surprised an argument could last so long.


Many of you do not understand what misogyny is, and that just like there are different levels of racism, there are different levels of homophobia and sexism. It can be the very least-which, in Michael’s case, he was one of the least problematic people (which is true)- or it can be extreme hatred for women and anyone who doesn’t conform to hyper masculinity and being straight. We all have had or still have slight traces of internalized misogyny/sexism and even some other “-isms”. Just because someone displays ignorance about a topic does not make them a bad or unintelligent person. No one is 100% knowledgeable about every single thing. I never said I expected Michael to know everything and it is not bashing him to acknowledge that he could be wrong sometimes. I don’t even act like I know everything.  I was only examining two things he said. Literally. How fans got me saying he hated women and was a flat out homophobe out of that is amazing.

It has always been my belief that if Michael did not grow up with respect for his mother he wouldn’t have been so in touch with his own emotions, or respectful of women in general. Joseph was not giving his children (imo) the emotional support that they needed because his own father had been that way. Michael seemed to be very modest about his interactions with women and songs like Dirty Diana are proof of this. Some would say Dirty Diana is shaming groupies or making them out to appear “dirty” but I don’t think so. I think because Michael was raised around this kind of club lifestyle he had a distaste for women who only wanted him for one thing. That, and his religion taught him this kind of modesty. There is nothing wrong with modesty and MJ had a right to state what made him uncomfortable, personally. Like unwanted sexual advances from fans **stares at Shana Mangatal**. Also, it is interesting how Michael would always say “I don’t like using the term “groupies”.” Because he knew that word had a negative connotation to it and wanted to remain respectful. He had difficulty finding another word to replace it.

Michael saw how his brothers and father treated “groupies” and I also think that shaped how he interacted with women. He was surrounded by an adult atmosphere from a young age, which is really not appropriate. Hate to bring this up again but his brothers did have sex in the room while he was there “asleep”. So naturally he would not like the “club” life or going to strip clubs, etc, which is probably why he said “I didn’t want to go to a gay bar (with Madonna) where they cross dressed“.

Now, I did explain on Twitter that there is nothing wrong with a straight man not being interested in going to a gay bar or strip club if that’s not what he is interested in. That doesn’t make him a homophobe. I just stated that the way he said “where they cross dressed” kind of rubbed me the wrong way. It could have easily been interpreted as a micro aggression even if he did not intend for it to come off as “I’m not comfortable around people who cross dress.”

Also, these statements were taken at a time where MJ was unguarded so I have to take that into consideration. Rabbi Shmuley Boteach really did record Michael and twist his words in a Bashir-like fashion. He made MJ out to be some woman hating egotistical narcissist. He even hinted that Michael was delusional and had the same self righteous attitude towards MJ as Martin Bashir, praising him in one moment and saying another thing “off camera”.

Now, back to my statement earlier where I said Michael sounded like he was being close minded and saying micro aggressions. I said it only sounded like he was saying he was not comfortable around people who cross dressed, which to be honest can be interpreted in different ways. Even If MJ was simply describing the gay strip bar his statement still sounded a bit…loaded. But that’s just my opinion. The important thing to remember is that he was coming out of some views he had as a Witness as he got older.

Another thing that I said that fans had a problem with, is that I brought up the fact that Michael wrote songs about premarital sex yet watched porn. He was a complex human being. I understand that Superfly Sister is obviously from a narrative point of view but it could have easily reflected his past views. Obviously Michael still believed in being a modest gentleman but didn’t seem to hold on to shame from coming into his own sexual “awakening and freedom” around the Dangerous era. However I was simply stating that it’s contradictory to preach about how men and women should be modest while viewing porn. That is all. And I said it rather jokingly, not even in a serious manner, yet fans were so up in arms about what I said. One or two ass hats actually interpreted my tweets as me saying that Michael was automatically sexist and disrespected women just because he watched porn. Then the same idiot (for lack of a better word) started preaching about how the porn industry was BUILT to respect women. I almost died laughing.

***Trigger warning: mention of R*pe. ***

How is your white ass (excuse my french) going to go on a supposed rant about women’s empowerment under a screen shot of my tweet and say that the porn industry is a not a sexist atmosphere for women, especially women of color? That is beyond illogical and has nothing to do with Michael. That is another topic entirely. I am still not knowledgeable about everything sex workers go through but common sense is knowing that women of color are fetishized in porn, raped, and disrespected. If the industry was not so male centered this would not happen and women could be more sexually liberated. A lot of people watch porn and it gives them unrealistic expectations towards sex. I am not claiming that MJ fetishized or disrespected women by looking at porn, nor will I kink shame anyone viewing it. It’s just the fact that a lot of people are oblivious to what sex workers go through as they watch it. I am not saying all women are raped and disrespected either but it is a male centered industry.

And that’s NOT ALL. NO, the same fans said that I was being sexist because I thought that since MJ wanted to preach about modesty and watch X rated films at the same time, I was being sexist against my own gender? Two plus ninety equals roller skate. That’s how bad these fans were reaching. I know, doesn’t make sense.

Fans took my statements out of context and applied their simple minded logic and snarky responses because they were itching for drama to jump onto. It was a discussion they had a right to see and partake in, but I am not obligated to entertain anyone who is disrespectful or that put words in my mouth. I have no respect for people like that. This whole discussion escalated into full blown homophobic statements from MJ fans on the timeline. Disgustin’.

Some said “well MJ had a right to privately disagree with homosexuality!” He sure did and you do too! But just because you have a negative opinion of someone’s “lifestyle” does not mean it can’t be a harmful opinion. I said this exact thing on Twitter and fans started complaining about being forced to accept homosexuality (LOL). It got that deep. Any belief that triggers an ugly response like that when challenged is not something I want to believe in. Y’all have fun over there with that. By the way, I am not claiming to know what Michael agreed and disagreed with. I am just saying that if he disagreed privately (because I didn’t know him) he had a right to do so. As long as he wasn’t saying it to his gay friends, which I highly doubt he would do something like that.

(Addressing gay rumors)

I know it’s not true, so it doesn’t bother me. I’m sure we must have plenty of fans who are gay. That doesn’t bother me in the slightest, but I’m not gay.

Michael Jackson in an interview with Steven Ivory, 1978


MJ did have many friends in the LGBT community. His designers and backup dancers were gay. I think he learned a lot from them and unlearned a lot of things he was taught in the past. I’m not going to list his friends here because I’m just lazy right now. Look it up. Anyway, moving on…

JANETAt this time I would like to acknowledge Ms. Janet Damita Jo Jackson. Feminist icon and sister to Michael. Why am I suddenly talking about Janet? Well, simply because I think I know why some people might be able to identify with Janet’s music a little more than Michael’s. Janet was more open about sexuality and liberation. The content of her songs are more diverse when it comes to that subject. No I am not saying “this sibling is better”, I’m just appreciating their differences. Michael was reserved about sexuality around strangers. I wish he would have opened up a little more because he seemed to be growing in a more “open” direction. The public really did try to beat him down into something they could understand and he always became larger than that expectation. I understand why it would be hard for him to be so open, because the press was dedicated to twisting his words and intentions.

Michael was subtle with his sexuality, you could see in the way he dressed. He experimented with makeup even beyond what was necessary for covering his vitiligo (see: Arno Bani photo shoot). I don’t think he believed wearing makeup and sequins made you any less of a man. He was very much in touch with himself and I can appreciate that. Michael was a fashion icon, okay? He shopped for clothing women would normally wear and gave no fucks. That eyeliner was on fleek. Them brows were arched better than McDonald’s arches fam. He liked letting his hair down and being a carefree black man and it just made me root for him even more.


Michael often said that not everything in his songs was about him, however a majority of his music, whether he wrote it or not, reflected his over all message as an artist. He enjoyed singing about love and venting feelings of mistrust and heartbreak. Loved him some ballads. I want to examine a couple of songs from the Dangerous Era that have caught my attention

First song, one of my favorites: Superfly Sister.

“love ain’t what it used to be…that is what they’re telling me…push it in stick it out…that ain’t what it’s all about!”

“That is what they’re telling me!” Sounds an entire abstinence talk someone is having with a young adult. You know those scenarios where religious parents are too uncomfortable to talk to their kids about sex so they just say “no girls/boys until  ___”? Well, I’m not saying Katherine did that but how did Michael find out about girls and be able to educate Janet about sex if according to them, Katherine didn’t like discussing it? I think he did some exploring of his own.

“Mother’s preaching Abraham…Brothers, they don’t give a damn!”

Sounds like mama Katherine, or somebody religious was not giving them the right talk about sex so the “brothers” went out and found out about it themselves. The narrator of this song sounds a bit accusatory and angry at the brothers for not listening to mother and waiting to have sex.

As similar theme is reflected in Monkey Business. Note that both songs have a sensual beat, opposite to what the actual lyrics say. Monkey Business sounds like the narrator (presumably MJ) had seen too much promiscuity going on in the family and he threatened to “tell”. Maybe other fans have a different interpretation?

Dangerous era is very interesting. It’s like an internal battle he had with what his mother may have taught him about sex and religion, and what his own personal morals developed into. By the mid 90s I believe Michael was shooting Blood on the Dancefloor, a short film that is set in a gay club. In the film you can see guys and women as couples and they all kind of exist in this harmony because they’re presumably just having a good time at a club. It is a very different picture from the lyrics to BOTDF. “Susie” is still the main subject but I could not help but notice if there were any symbolism to this? Again, maybe other fans have more input on this underrated short film. Let’s move on to the last song (finally!).


It’s just a feelin‘..you have to soothe it. You can’t neglect it…you can’t abuse it. It’s just desire and you cannot waste it. So if you want it, why don’t you TASTE it?”

I love this short film for…reasons. The bold text in the quote above are worth thinking about because it seems like the narrator (or Michael) is speaking to himself almost, trying to reason with himself that it’s okay to be freely sexual and seek out beautiful women. He has a wedding ring on in the film and I think it doesn’t symbolize cheating or a secret marriage, but his lingering “morals”. Comparing songs like Superfly Sister to In the Closet, I could see how each song juxtaposes each other and sits together in a sort of chaos of the mind. Thoughts moving around in your head about your identity, even parts of yourself that still clash. I am not sure if MJ planned it this way but I smell brilliance. If you look at the overall tone of the Dangerous album you will get a central theme of religion, introspection, sexuality, and also you can’t have a Michael Jackson album without some kind of world peace anthem.

His childhood shaped him for better or worse. The abuse and colorism he suffered led him to be a children’s rights activist and to love a community that seemed to want to push him away and “other” him, even harder. This is the discussion I was trying to have on the Twitter timeline but I’ll just wait for his fans to grow up and stop acting like Michael was incapable of offending anyone, ever. He had his moments but the whole point of this is to say they did not define him as a whole. I’m glad to say I can view MJ in a much more human light and stop spazzing out over every critique of him that I dislike. Unless of course, it’s slander.


*Androgynous: having both male and female characteristics or qualities, or dressing in a gender neutral way (a masculine and feminine side).

**Cis-gendered: someone who identifies with the sex they were born with

*** Hypermasculinity: exaggeration of male stereotypical behavior, such as an emphasis on physical strength, aggression, and sexuality. Many men who are hypermasculine do not like to show physical affection or cry, in order to not be perceived as “weak” or feminine.

Michael and Trump


Hello again MJ fans. A thought just occurred to me and I had to rush to write it down. Whenever I discover something new about Michael I always get this elated feeling. I become thirsty for analysis of his behavior and career moves. I recently came across an article detailing Donald Trump’s long history of racism. MJ only hung out with Trump to later call him out quietly in one of his songs, Money. However after reading the New York Times article, something else just caught my attention.

Michael rented the best floor at Trump towers and stayed across from Trump in his luxury suite, under the guise of “business”. According to the article I linked earlier in this post, it seems Trump and his family have had a history of denying Black people entrance into their housing. It more so looked like a statement Michael was trying to make. No one could deny one of the world’s most famous and powerful African Americans any type of residency at one of Trump’s establishments.

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Toward the end of the song Money, Michael starts listing off names of robber barons- or very wealthy businessmen-and I would always wonder what he was saying but a fan named Syl (who’s video I linked above) helped fans figure out that he was not just uttering “meaningless” things in this song.


These men were described as greedy (noticeably White) men who hoarded all the profits for themselves in the name of doing big business, regardless of who it affected. I cannot help but think about Trump’s recent comments he made about African Americans and wonder, was Michael trying to send subliminal messages to the public before it was cool? It also causes me to wonder about a lot of other people he became acquainted with during his life. This sure is a slap in the face for MJ fans who support Trump and his bigoted views! Trump and Michael were not friends. They only had a short business relationship so I don’t know why a lot of fans are jumping on a bandwagon to praise Trump for “defending” Michael in the past. I highly doubt that Michael would support someone so hateful but let me not elaborate on my dislike for fans who use Michael as a shield to cover their own bigotry. I already wrote about it. Maybe this topic will expand in the future.

MJ fans, did you always know Michael was actually making some sense in this song or did you just now find out what he was saying?

The 11 Year Trial



On June 13th,2005 Michael Jackson was acquitted of 14 counts of child molestation, kidnap, and administering alcohol to an underage sick child. Think about those charges for a moment and how serious they are. They tried to say Michael conspired with at least two other people to kidnap and kill the Arvizo family- which was disproved. They tried to say he administered alcohol to Gavin Arvizo in order to molest him countless times-which again, was disproved in court. Staff at Neverland Ranch repeatedly testified to the Arvizo family being very disrespectful and even violent. Star and Gavin would threaten the maids, get pass codes to secret areas and go in Michael’s things while he was not around. It is no secret that he and Star brought their own adult porn to Neverland.This is all in court documents and testimony. It is very confusing as to why the media keeps re-releasing the same debunked story from 11 years ago. In 2004 the media tried to release false information about the trial, that they found child porn in Michael’s residencies, which was shut down even by the prosecution!


Statement released in 2004 from the office of defense attorney Tom Mesereau

Websites like @DailyMail or @Radar_Online are known for constantly releasing false information about Michael Jackson and his family. This has been going on for years yet people are acting like this news is a fresh discovery. It is not widely known that Michael had solid alibis for each of these dates he supposedly molested these children. It is not widely know that Michael never invited random children that he didn’t even know, into his bed. According to numerous people who testified in the trial, his bedroom alone was like a two story apartment. He never asked anyone to sleep in his bed and said that numerous times. Another thing the public does not know is that Michael often gave his bed to guests who wanted to sleep in his room, and slept down stairs or on the floor. The media tried so hard to hide all of this information, but by publishing lies, it enables fans to spread the truth. Michael did not only have children sleeping in his bedroom. It has been proven that adults would sleep in his room with their kids as well. His nieces and nephews slept in there.



Allow me to address the subject of Michael “inviting” people into his room. I already established that he never invited anyone into his room. The media claims that he would take random kids in there which is totally false. He had children come to Neverland from inner cities on field trips or from the Make A Wish foundation, they would play all day and be entertained, and then go home. It was not a big sleep over event like the news would have you believe.

I will not post court testimony here because I have been repeating myself for too long. Karen Faye, Jermaine Jackson, Taj Jackson, Paris and Prince Jackson have all taken to social media to defend Michael. I strongly urge that society stop claiming to be informed without actually doing the necessary work to be informed. When Michael said that kids followed him everywhere and that they wanted to “be” with him it was not in a sexual way.


I will not post images or links to this Daily Mail story. I will only reiterate what I already said in the beginning of this post. These lies originated from a popular tabloid called Radar Online. These outlets are connected, so whenever they post something about MJ, they twist it to make him look sinister and it spreads to other outlets. They have been doing this since the 80s. I have already posted the statement that Judge Melville signed off on to give Tom Mesereau permission to confirm that the reports the police found child porn at Neverland Ranch is FALSE. This was in 2004 people! Do you now see how you cannot trust the media to give you up to date and accurate information all the time? They repeat this story for 11 years and fans and his family have had to deal with it. The general public thinks that this is a new thing! Taj Jackson is one of Michael’s nephews. He defends his uncle to death and is about to pursue legal action against each of these outlets for using his image to claim that shirtless pictures of the 3T band that he’s apart of was included in the “naked children” statement  they found in Michael’s ranch.

On Snapchat they are claiming that Michael had a secret sex closet, which is ridiculous! This smear campaign is nothing but a huge attack on Michael’s race, legacy, and sexuality-and the lies were published five days before the anniversary of his death. Michael was a non gender role conforming heterosexual man who was slightly androgynous. People think that a man collecting toys and dolls is evidence of sexual perversion, and it was so easy for the media to spin it that way. He may not have had what’s considered a normal hobby but he bought toys to give to kids in orphanages for the most part. It wasn’t just about him. Not all men have to love sports or collect cars-which Michael did a little of both anyway. That closet was full of things he’d collected and earned throughout his career.


I already wrote a short blog post about the settlements Michael “made” in the past but I will not link them in this post because I feel like the public are screaming about these settlements as an admission of his guilt without actually analyzing why the settlements were made, and also what the terms were.

“It is General practice for an insurer to be entitled to control settlement negotiations and the insured [MICHAEL JACKSON] is precluded from any interference…under the majority of contracts for liability insurance, the absolute control of the defense of the matter is turned over to the INSURANCE COMPANY and the insured is excluded from any interference in any negotiation for settlement or other legal proceedings…the insured may not interfere with nor prevent such settlements.”

This is a screen shot of an actual court document. I highlighted the essential parts because the general public does not understand and the media refuses to report this. Michael Jackson was the one being insured on the Dangerous tour by his insurance company. They took control of the settlements to prevent any liability to their company. So, a company payed settlements to Jordan Chandler’s family in 1994, NOT Michael Jackson. Michael wanted the criminal trial to move forward so that he could testify on the stand in order to exonerate himself, but once the company payed the Chandlers they dropped the criminal charges. Nothing prevented them from testifying against Michael Jackson in the future. A lot of people like to forget that Evan Chandler and Blanca Francia demanded money from Michael because they felt they were entitled to it. These were very greedy people and they aren’t the only ones who wanted money.

A lot of people forget that Evan Chandler tried to kill his own child for the settlement money. He never cared about Jordan and even said he would finance his dream to become a screenwriter and if Michael did not help him he would take him down with everyone else. The media never reported that Evan was later accused of molesting one of his patients. That court document is out there. I will link all of my sources at the bottom of this post because I have had enough.

Another word I need you all to pay attention to in the court document segment above? Notice the word “expedient”.

An insurance carrier has the right to settle claims covered when it decides settlement is expedient.”


The definition of expedient means convenient. So in other words an insurance company has the right to settle if it is convenient for them, no matter if it is viewed as immoral. Stop saying that Michael payed hush money to kids families when the FBI and IRS had track of where all his finances went from 1980-present. Stop saying that there were new FBI files released that showed he had child porn. That is false. False allegations happen not as frequently as rape happens, but they DO happen. Michael Jackson’s FBI files are public information. His insurance only payed two settlements in the 90s. Go to fbi.gov and search through the Vault. Type in Michael’s name and see that in each of his files he was stalked and threatened by mentally unstable fans, and that they found no child porn on any of his computers. The only thing they found in his house was adult porn because he was a heterosexual man who had a right to view what he liked. He never showed anyone his stash and that’s in court evidence. I could go into detail all day but the point is, fans are not your personal Google search engine. Read it for yourself and stop believing everything you see and hear on the news. This man has been on trial for what seems eleven years. Every time his name is mentioned someone states that he’s either guilty, or they’re undecided on how to feel about him. Let him rest in peace and stop attacking his reputation and legacy.



The Dangers of Helping Everybody (UPDATED 09/02/2016)


Where do I even begin? The past years on Twitter have been a roller coaster. From racism to harassment from 2014- 2015 to being manipulated into helping someone take down the wrong person. I’ll get to that in a second. For some reason a lot of people in this fan base think I am a “queen” or the ultimate person to come to about their problems. In the beginning it wasn’t an issue because I did not have as many followers but I am just now realizing; I can’t be everything to everyone at once. So, I ended up closing my direct messages and only focusing on the people I truly know. I don’t even consider myself popular in this fanbase to be honest.

Now, about that whole “going after the wrong person” thing. I am unable to find the words for how I was used and manipulated into spreading false information about someone named V, who is quite popular to a certain section of the Michael Jackson fanbase. It all started for me in December 2015, when two or three friends (I’ll just call them S, C, and Flav) came to me saying someone was being very misogynistic towards them, especially towards Flav. So I asked how I could help. S told me that Flav was feeling depressed. Suffering from severe depression myself, I went to Flav in DMs to see what was the matter. To simplify all of this, I thought that V was pursuing Flav as a minor so I became suspicious. People who were friends with V started slut shaming S and Flav for calling V out, because S and Flav felt V was being very disrespectful. I intervened because she had told me he was 18, pursuing Flav while she was a minor, which is not right, or legal. But it turns out that he was actually just talking to her while he was 17 and she was 15, and I guess maybe Flav expected a relationship but V was not interested in her because she was too young, He was college age. I cannot elaborate any further and I don’t  claim to know what else went down in their friendship, because I was not there.

Flav was not very clear with me in the beginning so I started immediately becoming suspicious of V. I cannot remember exactly what else happened because this all went down in December, but somewhere along the line someone led everyone to believe that V was predatory. Who this “someone”is, I will get to in a moment. So, I initially started calling V and his followers out for bullying and misogyny. Then S and C started believing V was predatory. So everyone started to call V out. My guess would be this “someone” caught wind of this suspicion and ran with it, and started spreading rumors that V was a pedophile out of revenge. Looking back on how this person moved so silently still manages to creep me out. Thoroughly.

Fast forward to May 13, 2016. An account called “stopfakersofmj” comes into my messages with a bunch of screenshots and I become curious. My first instinct was to block the account because a lot of the information of the page was not credible and the person behind it seemed mentally unstable, but I ignored my intuition and looked at their posts. This managed to creep me out because I saw some screenshots where V was talking about me and some of my followers in DMs. At first I thought that someone had posed as a friend to get screenshots of him being “inappropriate” with young fans. So that made me go into full alert and I became angry because I saw DMs where V was talking to his friends about me in a negative way. And I mentioned V, and did a periscope and told my followers to tag him in it. I cursed him out for talking shit but in hindsight I know he did it now because he was angry that I was going along with false rumors about him. I’m not defending some of the things he and other people said about me that were problematic though.It also turns out that the screenshots of group chats involving  V were either doctored, or cropped because those chats all involved people that were 18+ in age.

After I did my periscope chat cursing V out, I created a group DM with people that I could absolutely trust (with the exception of one person), and we went to work investigating who was behind a particular account named saturdayxbang, because at that time we were all under the impression that V was a stalker with multiple accounts. We thought that saturdayxbang was him as well. By the way, these friends I mentioned were not directly involved with calling V out, so I will not mention them for their safety. Just know we’re very good at doing research and investigating. I did not come to the conclusions I’m about to list, on my own.

Long story short, when all this chaos was going on, two other people approached me in DMs. I’ll call them A, and In*. A was pulled into this by In*, so I do not blame her for helping me go after V. In* and A told me that C (my friend from earlier) was behind saturdayxbang. Also someone in the private chat told me the same thing. So I became suspicious of C, wondering why, if she was one of the first people to come to me about V possibly being predatory, why she would suddenly change her tune and start supporting and defending V. I came to C in DMs, where she revealed that she lied to me about being saturdayxbang. I became angry at her for not being honest with me but I eventually moved on from that. She said she was scared to tell me because she didn’t know how I would respond to her. C also told me that she only became saturdayxbang to spy on certain people, in order to help with getting the truth out about V, I guess.

I knew something was off when she revealed that she was defending V. So, I went back to DMs in the group chat with my trustworthy friends and said that C was indeed behind saturdayxbang. That is when one of my  friends (call her S) alerted me to a pressing issue, but then I knew something was definitely wrong when she DMed me separately from the entire group. “Do not trust Liyah” she told me. And so I kept “Liyah” in the dark in the private chat then created another more secure chat so we all could speak freely. S revealed to me that she had been speaking to C and V. I was surprised. At first I was skeptical. I did not trust V however C was being honest and telling the truth with me about being behind that saturday account. So I decided to listen to S. She told me that Liyah lied and gave me proof that Liyah knew V was innocent since December 2015. Once I found out that Liyah had been witholding information I became enraged, and plotted.

While I plotted to call all of these people out publicly (I made a list of five people), S revealed to me that V had a stalker, someone who began all those rumors about V in the first place. So I DMd V and apologized for helping to spread that misinformation, because it was damaging to his reputation. I planned to get the truth out, and V told me he suspected at least 3 people who may have been encouraged by this unknown stalker to spread these rumors. Call them Kim, In*, and Liyah.

That’s right. Liyah.

Aside from this stalker situation, Liyah was so focused on getting back at C for personal beef that did not involve me, that she let me call V out on May 13th. She knew he was innocent all along yet let me continuously call V out, even before that. What she did was unforgivable but in the end she did manage to tell me some truth. I called her, Kim, In*, and Kelsey out publicly, as well as the stopfakersofmj account. As soon as I make an evidence thread I will post it to this blog.

Let me shorten this story because if I go into full detail about what went down this post will go on forever. Basically, I interrogated each of them. V told me Kim may have started rumors about him and teamed up with Kelsey out of jealousy, which would not be hard to believe because I have notes of her that V gave me, telling him to stay away from C, and other women in the fandom she was jealous of.  That is one reason why I called In* and Kim out publicly. In* still has not responded to me to defend herself if she is innocent of spreading these rumors. I did however catch Kim in many lies. I do not claim to know if she started those rumors against V because she does not even follow Kelsey. In the beginning she defended V against rumors, but I called her out anyway just to see her reaction. Also, besides her being suspected of spreading rumors, I discovered that she was talking shit about me behind a locked account, despite us having unfollowed each other over a year ago. Apparently she lied about me to people in the fandom, claiming that I, a pro-black African American woman mixed with Indian ancestry, hated V because he was mixed with Black, European, and Indian ancestry. How absurd. I came after her for that, and she blocked me for catching her in a lie.Not only did I get this information from V, I got it from someone who I’ll call “Han”.

Han told me also that Kim was spreading mess about me to a girl named Kelley and she had proof. Kim is mixed herself, and Kelley is white. Kim had the audacity to complain to Kelley about my pro-black tweets. And Kelley complained about me to  a girl named Guilia. I have never followed Kelley or Guilia so their stupid asses had no business making assumptions about me. If Guilia wants to speak to me it wouldn’t be wise because I ‘ll come after her too for trying to discredit my evidence that Kelsey is behind the stopfakers account. And she doesn’t have shit to say to my face, like all cowards do. I have no problem saying each of their names publicly because I’m tired of fake people playing the victim after talking shit. If we never followed or known each other the best thing for you to do is keep your mouth shut and stop claiming to know me or my intentions. They all deleted their tweets towards me, acting like I don’t have screenshots.

Kim, being the coon she is, had the audacity to talk to a white person saying I was racist. If she knew anything about racism, it’s that people of color cannot be racist to white people, but I already explained that in a previous post. It gives you a bad look, as a black person, to cater to white feelings and dismiss actual racism for their approval.

Anyway, don’t worry this story is drawing to a close soon. About Kelsey. I immediately started researching this guy. V told me his full name because they used to talk to each other regularly. V also told me the reason why Kelsey is doing all this is because he tried to warn some fans back then about Kelsey, who is a 50 year old white man that posed as a minor in order to pursue a relationship with young fans, in a sexual way (this is what V told me). I became disgusted. Not only because I and a lot of people went after the wrong person, but because this man would dare make his “hunting ground” the fanbase of a black man who was falsely accused of molestation himself, MJ.

You guys will not believe what I’m going to say next.

I found out that Kelsey followed In*, and Liyah. So, I asked him why he followed them and he repeatedly dodged my questions and denied even knowing these people. He lied, because Liyah was able to give me screenshots of this man coming into her and another person’s DMs, encouraging them to spread rumors that V is a pedophile. So, I believe that Kelsey may have managed to turn some of the fandom against V at some point in November-December 2015, because those screen shots I got from Liyah were dated in November. Not only did I discover this, I went to Kelsey’s locked account that V told me about, and it had “STOP FAKERS OF MJ” in big ass print, plastered and edited onto a newspaper in his background. Kelsey claims that I illegally got his name and pictures but he publicly posted them. I don’t even know how to hack and get addresses. If that were the case, I would have put a stop to the intense and unwarranted harassment I went though from 2014-2015.

Not only did Kelsey change his background after I made those connections, FLAV, one of the people I mentioned earlier, one of the first people who came to me about V, told me that Kelsey once tried to come to her about V on another one of his accounts that is now suspended! Like I said, this guy moved silently. He even followed me from his king_mike_1958 account (he recently changed the name, btw) and took screenshots of all of my tweets against V in order to use them against me. If Kelsey is reading this, please know I am not the one to trifle with. How dare you and others use me as a tool when I as just trying to help a friend in the first place, Flav. Flav should have spoken up earlier then I would not have gone after V the way I did. It doesn’t matter now because it’s in the past.

Kelsey, whether you are a pedophile or not, you have an unhealthy obsession with V and you need to cease and desist all of your actions. Your entire account is libel. You involved me in this and you keep mentioning me despite my many efforts to tell you to stop. I want nothing to do with your revenge against V because really, all of you put me in this and I should not have been so eager to help anyone in the first place. That’s how I got into this crazy situation! Now I have no choice but to pursue the truth. Do not make me get the law involved because I broke no laws. You however are obviously guilty of cyber stalking and harassment. I will file a cyber stalking report with the FBI if you refuse to stop using my tweets to slander an innocent person. Whatever problem you have with V, he will deal with you. Leave me and other people out of this because you’re making this a bigger mess than it has to be. This is your last warning.


 UPDATE 09/02/16

Looking back on this post, all I can really say is…ew. So many things have changed since May. For instance, I forgave “Liyah” and it turns out V was lying to me all long as well. Kelsey may not be a pedophile but that’s none of my concern. I was making little changes to the blog and came across this painfully awkward post again. I considered deleting it, but it is after all a chronicle of my experiences on Twitter. Turns out V did not like the fact that Kelsey was teaming up with a “stop MJ fakers” account so he may have made up the story (to me) that Kelsey was a pedophile as revenge for fans reporting him to the stopfakers account as someone pretending to be MJ. This is a big deal in the fandom. People who pretend to be MJ take advantage of unstable fans and build a following, which I do think V is guilty of to some extent. I mean, he did use someone else’s photo for a while before he was called out again and forced to do a video proving it was him. And he creeped me out majorly. I don’t know why I even  engaged myself with people like that but it goes to show the people you think you can trust on social media often cannot be trusted. What creeped me out especially about V is, he used to tell his followers to call him “Michael”, and when I volunteered to help squash rumors about him being a pervert (I still think he’s predatory and misogynisitc in some form) he started acting as if he went through the same trials and tribulations that MJ did, even calling the day I called those people out for him “Victory Day.”

That’s right, Victory Day, the same title given to June 13, 2005 when MJ beat his allegations. It highly creeped me out and when I changed my mind about supporting V, people turned against me. It was foolish and naive of me to call anyone out even though I saw partially involved in this mess thinking I was helping someone. I should have let V handle his own business because some ex-friends I investigated this situation with took sides with him. They were blinded by his sob stories. V claimed to care about and be a protector of women but would tweet some disgusting misogynistic stuff about his female ex-followers, including Liyah. The fact that they would keep coming back to him sounds like a cycle of abusive behavior and entitlement. It’s also insane for lack of a better word. I got the feeling that V liked to be the center of attention and turn his female followers against one another as well. Anyway, I just thought I would update this so I wouldn’t leave everyone hanging (like anyone actually reads this blog lol).