Janelle Monae Painting Progress


The progress of my painting so far!


Sometimes I wish I could take my heart out and dispose of it like a bad tooth, then apply an anesthetic. It has a purpose and is essential but feeling hurts. Looking inside hurts. Sometimes I wish I was numb.


White People (Part 1)

Why is it that Conservative “Christian” White people want to act “holier than thou” when in actuality,  they’re the highest form of scum ever created? They have this weird inherent “white savior complex” that allows them to treat minorities as if they should be grateful of their presence.  One WCC (White Conservative Christian) i got into an argument with used this photo on Twitter:


Seriously? Let me tell you what’s wrong with this meme:

1. “Pull the race card” is the staple of someone who isn’t that race and hasn’t lived those experiences. White people use this all the time to dismiss the struggles of People of Color.

2. There’s no such thing as a “race card” or “feminist card”. That’s only for white people/ mysogynists who don’t want to be held accountable for their actions and words.

3. To not be aware of racial issues makes you intellectually weak. Some white people claim to “not see race”, therefore (intentionally or not) taking away a part of your humanity.


Another thing I noticed these past weeks on Twitter: white people on Twitter love to say “don’t take black face/ the word “nigga” or “nigg*r” seriously” when it comes from their mouth. They love to say “not everything is about race” in order to excuse their actions. Here’s a couple of people that were exposed for doing blackface/saying racist remarks on twitter this month. I will not blur their names:






This is just a SMALL segment of the things i see that offend me on social media. The bad thing about this is, white people want to act all innocent as if they don’t know what black face is and when they’re called out on it, they shift the blame. Why can’t you just apologize and learn from your actions?  Just because some black people may be comfortable with other races using the N word, doesn’t mean the entire race is. I am not. Don’t say that word to me or around me. Black face is bad. Saying the N word is bad. You don’t get to tell black people how to act or what to be offended by. It’s ridiculous that People of Color recieve so much hate for the color of their skin.

To come back to the subject of conservative white people: they claim to be Christian but spew all these false facts and statistics about people of color (especially black people). They’re often mysogynist,  homophobic,  transphobic and everything else in between. That is not love for your fellow human. That is contempt, arrogance, and narcissism. Pride is a sin. ☺ Also, read Matthew 7:1:

Stop judging  that you may not be judged; for with the judgment you are judging, you will be judged, and with the measure that you are measuring out, they will measure out to you. 3 Why, then, do you look at the straw in your brother’s eye but do not notice the rafter in your own eye? 4 Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Allow me to remove the straw from your eye,’ when look! a rafter is in your own eye?

Notice how they always have “patriot” or ” mom/dad of 4″, guns, and the American flag in their bio. The only reason you love America is because you benefit from the system of privlege your ancestors built in some way. There is nothing good about this place from the perspective of a Person of color. I mean, you support the right to guns but won’t blink when another school shooting kills children. You support pro life but won’t help the women you force to have a child. I don’t get it, but that’s another topic for another day.

The main point is, the only thing black people ask is to be treated equally, like humans and you can’t even give that to us because you feel entitled to do what you want while making us uncomfortable. And some white people are so quick to say “Not All White people” yet stay silent when POCs are calling out racism. If you do that, you’re part of the problem. Point blank. Not all white people are bad/racist but y’all sure do have a way of getting mad at certain things. You’d rather get mad at generalization of your race than call out members of your race. I really don’t get it.


Muy Caliente

PROMPT: ” If “failure is the condiment that gives success its flavor” (Truman Capote), how spicy do you like your success stories?” The Spice of Success

I love spicy foods. So a little zest doesn’t bother me. Without failure, life would be boring, there’d be nothing to challenge us. Our strength and character are built by falling and rising again. Struggle allows us to grow and learn. Personally, I know that my struggles are only a part of a bigger picture. As an artist, I may be denied certain opportunities two, three, four times. That doesn’t mean I should give up. I believe firmly in reaching my greatest potential. You need fire in your life, and in your spirit to succeed!

Stories where someone has struggled and overcome are my motivators. People who have that drive for perfection and the dedication to make their dreams come true, are what help keep me going. Wit, things with a little bite, excite and interest me and make me think. Let’s use an example: my mom made chilli today. Ingredients? Beef, peppers, sausage, tomatoes, beans, onions, and chilli powder. If you want the chilli to taste good, add seasoning and spices. I love putting hot sauce in my chilli. The more, the better. Otherwise, if nothing is in the chilli, it’ll be bland and boring. Spice, struggle, come with success. Good things come out of struggle.

*See Note Inside

My Blog submission for today’s prompt: “The year is 2214, and your computer’s dusty hard drive has just resurfaced at an antique store. Write a note to the curious buyer explaining what he or she will find there. “
Buyers, Beware?


If, in the event that my laptop is found, please take the information on it and do with it as you will. Just know, upon gaining access to it, that you will be thoroughly confused at finding over 7,000 pictures of Michael Jackson, makeup videos, pictures, drawings, and my personal diary. See deep into the mind of an artist, fan, and writer (if you’re curious). Maybe you will learn something from me. Maybe you will see into the struggles of a 22-year-old with depression, depending on music to keep her sane, trying decide what she will do with her life, and wondering if her days will get just a little brighter. I don’t know. I can’t see into the future. Look up my obituary and see what age I lived to be, and see if I made an impact in people’s lives (like I planned) or if I just died an unknown. I hope the stories and art you find will enthrall and inspire you. Make my drawings and concepts into movies and graphic novels if I don’t get a chance to. Who knows how the technology will be in the future. For all I know, you might be able to get access to and share data with your mind. Please take care of this laptop, and may it aid you in the study of the past. Peace.



#mjfam Mixed Children: Why MJ Couldn’t Have Any in the Eyes of the Media


“Black people were called colored people because we come in all colors from very white – as white as my hand – to very dark, as dark as your shirt.”


-Michael Jackson, 2003 Living With Michael Jackson “Documentary”




What are the chances that Michael Jackson would have an “adopted” child with vitiligo (Prince Jackson)? The disease is very rare and affects 0.5-2% of the population.
They have the same smile. Regardless of any nose surgery, his children have his features.
A cool edit by a fan. “Blanket” Jackson

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I have to talk about something that has been nagging me ever since I started hearing more and more about Michael’s children. The fact that fans are saying that his children couldn’t possibly be his, and yet they are more eager to accept a “more brown looking” possible child such as the bogus B. Howard claim ( later proven to be false and started for shock value and attention in the first place) which came from a source I thought all MJ fans should be sick of by now- TMZ, a tabloid- is shocking and confusing to me.

I believe that Paris, Prince and Blanket are Michael’s biological kids. If we can’t believe Michael’s own words, who can we believe? Why are people trying to discredit and hurt Michael and his kids by saying he had an inability to produce his own children? Just because you are black and you have kids that are light-skinned doesn’t mean they aren’t yours! Look at Quincy Jones’s child, Rasida Jones! Her hair is very straight, her skin very light but that doesn’t mean Quincy is not her biological father. I’m tired of everyone having preconceived notions of what “mixed” babies should look like, it’s ignorant and prejudiced! I think this is just an attempt by Michael’s detractors to smear his legacy and emasculate him even in death. Even if they were not his biological children, why should it matter? Michael raised them and gave them love, so he is their father.

Some fans have even gone so far as to say MJ may have been impotent. This all feeds into views the media have pushed onto us: that he was asexual, afraid of women, gay, unable to conceive a child, and the media tried to use these angles to make him out to be a pedophile. I was watching a video of the Steve Harvey Morning Show presumably a couple of days or weeks after his Memorial service where Steve is ripping into the ever racist bigot Bill O’Reily about how Michael was, in fact, a black man and a legend. Steve made an interesting point. He said something along the lines of “have you ever stopped to think that maybe Michael had a surrogate because he didn’t want to pass on his vitiligo to his children?”
Now that’s if Michael decided he wanted another man and woman to give him a child, which would have been perfectly fine. Just because you adopt or have a surrogate doesn’t make you their parent. What makes you a parent is if you raise them.


Let’s all not forget that MJ admitted himself, his children were his biologically ( I can understand why he didn’t like talking about the subject because he was a very private person), but will you trust MJ’s admission (straight from the horse’s mouth) or that of a dermatologist with a bad case of verbal diarrhea and attention seeking-itis? MJ said he conceived his first two children naturally, and used his own sperm cells with a surrogate mother for Blanket to be born.

Debbie Rowe Admits Michael is the Father

Arnold Klein is about as trustworthy as Martin Bashir. First the media says that Mark Lester is the father, then Kline. Who will you believe? Medically, he vindicated MJ by giving us proof of Jackson’s Lupus and Vitiligo. That’s as far as I will go when trusting what comes from his mouth concerning MJ. He has an agenda too you know. Also, what are the chances that Michael Jackson would have an “adopted” child with vitiligo (Prince Jackson)? The disease is very rare and affects about 0.5- 2 percent of the population. Those are Michael’s genes, passed down from his father’s side. Undeniable. To learn more about Vitiligo, go here. The way the tabloids describe a man perfectly capable of having his own children as using another man (Kline) to have his children, and then one of them ends up getting the very same skin disease, is bizarre, and unbelievable. It sounds like something out of a science fiction movie, which is basically what tabloids want you to believe. Proof that MJ had Vitiligo and lupus here and here  (screenshots from medical records).


Quincy Jones's children (above) compared to Michael Jackson's children (below)
Quincy Jones’s children (above) compared to Michael Jackson’s children (below)
 Her father (Alfred Roy): African American and Venezuelan. Her mother, Patricia, is White.
Mariah Carey. Singer. Her father (Alfred Roy): African American and Venezuelan. Her mother, Patricia, is White.
Wentworth Miller. Actor. His father is black, his mother is white.
Wentworth Miller. Actor. His father is black, his mother is white.

I could give a long list of celebrities who pass as “white” and are mixed race (for instance, Michael’s children have cousins who are mixed race. That’s right. His own BROTHERS have children who are mixed), but there’s this thing called Google. Use it if you’d like.

A point to make: so it’s okay for other celebrities to have mixed children and have no worries/ doubts, yet when it’s Michael Jackson he is sexless, impotent, emasculated and these cannot possibly be his children even though he admitted to conceiving them himself? Double standard. You all forget: black people are the most diverse race on the planet. There is no “standard feature” for black people. Our features range from blonde hair and blue eyes, to very dark skin and dark hair/eyes. Not all black people will have full lips or a prominent nose. Not all will have curly hair.  Think about that before you believe the media. There is no “standard” for how a mixed child should look.

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